He's safe!

He just messaged me and he's safe. He hadn't even heard about it so I hope that's a good sign! He has been sleeping for 9 hours which is amazing. He hasn't been able to sleep for more than a couple hours at a time since he's been there. Thank you ladies for your prayers and support. My first freak out is officially over.

Please God

If any one has watched the news today you'd see this. Over 400 Afghan prisoners have escaped Kandahar's prison. I haven't talked to my husband at all today which isn't normal. I'm assuming the communication has stopped right now but I'm scared to death. I never watch the news and I happened to tune un right when this was on.

Please God, let my husband be safe.

Happy Easter!

From Afghanistan...

And New York...

Please pardon the fact that not only does my husband look 20 years older than he actually is but also like a super creeper with the hitler stache and bald head. He's normally a very attractive man I swear <3 ;-)

I would give you a picture of me on Easter but so far all the ones I have seen I look absolutely horrible. And I'm not just saying that. I almost posted one but then I looked at it a bit longer and realized I looked like a man in a dress. So not sharing that with the world. Hopefully my sister in law got at least one good one from today. I'll keep you posted on that...

To fight or not to fight...

I don't know if it's just me but I feel like there is no way my husband and I should fight while he is deployed. I mean we barely get to talk so what could be we possibly fight about?

Well, we found a way. I can't help but be sad lately. I mean come on, my husband is deployed and I have a new baby. I think I have a reason. Anyways, apparently I was acting miserable and when my husband asked me why I was being so miserable I said I didn't know I was just sad. He then said ok well I can't help you then and I replied with I didn't ask you to help me. And that's where it gets messy.

Anyways, long story short... He was pissed that I was miserable and I was pissed that he decided not to talk to me for a couple hours.

This turned into way bigger of an issue than it needed to be which really upset me. I've had it in my mind that we weren't going to fight because there couldn't possibly be anything to fight about... I was wrong. I wasn't just wrong I was shocked. I would understand a normal argument but this was over something so ridiculous.

I get so scared arguing with him because I never know when, or heaven forbid if, I'll talk to him again. I don't want the last thing we say to each other to be something negative. I know I'm being crazy but I can't help it.

I honestly think that there is no reason to ever argue anyways. Sure people make mistakes and disagree but I think that everything can be talked out without serious arguments or being negative towards one another. But when it comes to arguments during a deployment, they just shouldn't exist. Am I crazy?

Blog makeover

In the next month my blog is going to have a make over. Right now I changed it just to take some elements out. It might be changing daily just to try and figure out what looks best.

Hopefully we can get it all organized soon :-)

The make over will be courtesy of Lindsey at A Freckled Life, owner of Serenity Effects Studios.

Stay tuned, for a while.

Big smiles!

I might just be on my own with this but I hate using the track pads on laptops. Especially because I am almost always using my laptop on a desk so I have been wanting a mouse for a while.

Well my Apple Magic Mouse came in today!! If you are a mac person you know how awesome they are and if you aren't a mac person, well look it up and be amazed. haha.

I'm so excited and I really needed a pick me up today and what better pick me up than getting a package delivered?

Sometimes I hate being female

Why does being a female have to be so darn awful?

I still can't control my emotions. I can hold in my tears now which is progress but as far as my feelings they are still roaring strong.

The slightest little things upset me. My husband could give me the wrong response to something I said and I am thrown into such a horrible mood that I don't even want to talk to him which is ridiculous because I should be jumping at every opportunity to talk right now. Which is another big thank you to being female, expecting our men to be understanding and emotional. Doesn't happen. Men don't understand women and women don't understand men. Or more like men don't care about the same things we do and therefore we get upset when we don't get a particular response to something we think deserves a little more than an "I'm sorry."

Why the heck do we say that? We can't be sorry for something we have no control over. Sure, we're sorry the other person is upset but my gosh that is one of the most irritating responses anyone could give me. Right next to oic. Both of which are frequent visitors to my husband's vocabulary.

Can someone please invent a device to allow us to figure out what on God's green earth is going on in a man's mind?