I am boycotting Facebook right now. Every time I sign on I see that yet another girl gets to be with her marine. I am so jealous that I'm angry. I went 3 months without seeing him during boot camp with no phone calls or texts or anything. I can't even go 2 months without him and we text and talk all day long. I don't know what's wrong with me but I really wish I was stronger right now.
Don't get me wrong. I am so happy for everyone who gets to spend time with their marine. I know my time will come. It's just looking like I wont see Jon again until our wedding lol. I think the idea of a 13 months deployment just around the bend is getting to me too. I mean 13 months??!?!?! Like COME ON!!! I feel like they aren't so much after the terrorists but my emotional health as well!
I need to snap out of it and get some strength but it's so hard to get my bearings in a new place that I'm still semi uncomfortable in. I feel like I need to take a drive home this weekend just so I can have a 3 hour cry without people thinking I'm crazy. But oh well. I am crazy. I'm crazy in love with my fiance and he just so happens to be a marine so I think I have the right to a little crazy time.
As of right now it's somewhere around 3 months and 20 days or so until I see Jon again. I guess I can live with that. I wish my roommates would all go away this weekend so I can have a huge break down. Then I would be good to go for at least a month or more. haha.
Trying to stay strong, failing, but picking myself back up each time.
Semper Fi<3
Friday, September 4, 2009
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I know our situations are different, but it makes me livid to see girls with their Marines. It also makes me livid when they complain about being a part for a few days or weeks. Frank and I haven't seen each other for 5 months, with little to no communication, just worries. Stick it out girl!
ReplyDeleteI know how you guys feel. Even seeing civilian couples together tugs at my heart. Especially here at Disney... there are so many of them! And some military too. But to hear other people hear complaining about how they miss their significant other who is a phone call or a visit away makes me so angry. I have to bite my tongue! I haven't seen Ryan since July and won't until probably February or so... it sucks but we will make it through. Stay strong hun, you can do it!!
ReplyDeleteI love that we all can understand this. Civilian girls have absolutely no idea why I miss Jon so much. I've been at college for a week and I've already heard "Well why don't you go see him?" at least 10 times. It makes them sound stupid. This just makes us stronger women in the long run. USMC Girls have to stick together! Stay strong ladies!
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