Tuesday, May 31, 2011

I held a baby

I held a baby the other day. A brand spakin' new one. Ok like 2 days old but still. She weighed 5 lbs and was like 16'' long. Yea tiny! And she was a day past her due date not premie.

Anyways, it made me realize just how big Abigail has gotten. When I looked at her after holding this tiny little baby I was sure that she was the size of a toddler. Time does go by so fast!! But I couldn't be happier with my big, smiley, happy, playful baby girl :-)

Abi, 1st day home

Abi, 3 months old. 

Monday, May 30, 2011

Happy Memorial Day

Today was wonderful. Abigail and I went to my tiny little town's parade. I held my tears in quite well while I watched the veterans go by. I did let some slip but no one noticed so they don't count. Abigail looked so darn cute that people in the parade were taking pictures of her. Yea, I have an adorable child.

After this parade we went to an even tinier town's parade, my husband's town about 5 miles away if that. It was over before we blinked twice but it was great. My mother in law puts together the parade and ceremony every year and she does such a wonderful job. We had little flags for each branch of service placed in the ground by our big flag. This is where the tears would have been flowing if I didn't have super duper strength. Then once everyone started their speeches I also had to muster up all of my strength, aka not pay one bit of attention to what anyone was saying. I know it's awful but I'm just not strong enough right now. I didn't want to be the lady in the corner crying her eyes out ya know?

We had another picnic at my husband's grandparent's house. Here are some pictures of our Memoral Day weekend.

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Memorial Day Celebrations

Every Memorial Day weekend my husband's family has their reunion. Last year neither of us made it and the year before it was just me...same as this year. We are yet to make it to one together which makes it hard. I love his family and seeing them always makes me happy. It's just hard to not have my husband with me because these are the things we are supposed to be sharing.

I'm really hoping that next year we will be able to go together. I like to think that I am strong but just seeing red, white and blue makes my heart sting. So you can imagine it's a pretty hard time right about now.

I'm filled with emotions and I'm completely amazed I can keep them all in. I have extreme pride in our country and our military, even more pride in my husband, complete sadness, sooo much love, but mostly it feels like someone is punching me in the throat constantly trying to get me to cry.

I just want this all to be over with. I want my husband back and our family to be together. For now I'm looking forward to R&R which is coming up in the next couple months. Then again I know that I have to give him back and go through all of these stages again.

Oh and this will sound completely horrible but the last thing I want to do while my husband is in a war zone is think about how many people have given their lives for this country. I am honored, proud and beyond thankful but it makes my skin crawl with the possibility and I can't add that to my emotional wrecking ball right now.

Stay positive and be thankful. (repeat 100 times a day)

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

I hate money suckers

This is going to be a huge I hate post.

I hate tricare and I hate student loan companies. Here is why.

I just got a bill in the mail from my dr's office with a balance of $320.10. What is this from? My last doctor's appointment. WHAT THE HELL?? Since when do we have to pay that much for a damn doctor's appointment that is in fact MANDATORY 6 weeks after my surgery. I'm about to swear, but this pisses me off. I don't have time right now but I am about to call everyone involved and (swearing again) bitch.

Second, student loan companies. I am still unclear on what is going on with this all but apparently I owe this company like $600 something and I'm over due. First of all, I have never once heard of this company before. They have my father's, and grandmother's information and were calling them in order to get my contact information. They say that they have sent me information or bills but I haven't received anything. They say it's because my phone number and address has changed. Is that really my problem when I have no idea who the hell they are? They are sending me all of my back mail now and let me tell you I am going to bitch to all of these people as well once that arrives.

I hate money sucking corporate ass holes. I don't ever swear, or very rarely, on my blog so obviously I am extremely pissed about this.

This is why people don't go to college because it's too expensive to pay out of pocket and everyone gets screwed with student loans. I hate you all.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Yay me!

I am patting myself on the back right now. I have not only lost my baby weight but I am back to what I weighed when I was a freshman in high school! Hello 130 lbs, I missed you. Now, I don't look exactly like I did I just weigh the same. I have bigger boobies and I was incredibly muscular and toned back then. My arms are about all that is toned on my body currently. But I'm working on it. 

I only have one picture of me from my freshman year, at least I'm pretty sure it's my freshman year. 

Here it is. This is where I want to get back to. I miss this bathing suit too. Ironic that my bikini is camo.

This is me at my prom my junior year. I weighed about 135 in this pic. I'm in the purple dress if you didn't figure that one out.

I don't have any recent pics yet but I will soon. Most likely this weekend since I have my husband's family reunion to attend. 

The point is my weight is awesome and now it's time to get some tonage back. 10 months without working out really has one heck of a toll on your body. 

12 weeks after having my wonderful daughter I have lost 40 pounds! Oh, and I only put 30 on during my pregnancy ;-) Yea I rock. 

So how did I do it? Well first of all I was lucky and carried almost all of my baby weight in my belly. A week after she was born without having done any exercise or anything I lost 12 lbs. I didn't really start to work out until 6 weeks after she was born. At that point I weighed 145. 

For the last 6 weeks I have been working out every day (almost) and doing zumba twice a week. My working out consists of 25-30 mins on the eliptical, minimal weight lifting, and some ab workouts. My eliptical at the gym has a work out plan that not only makes you do regular eliptical moves but you also have to reverse your stride, lift your heels, lift your toes in a reverse stride, and use only your arms for a nice break and arm workout. It's seriously the best invention EVER.

As for zumba. I would say most of my body I owe to zumba. All of the dancing has trimmed my waist and really slimmed me down. It's extremely fun and I always look forward to it so it makes working out easy. 

My husband and I were talking last night about working out and I was joking around about looking like a friend who is a female body builder. He said that he would love to see me work to figure out how far I can push myself. At first I laughed so hard I almost peed. Thinking about all of those muscles makes me laugh. Then I started to think of how awesome it would be to be able to physically transform by body the way I want. Now let me tell you this girl is drop dead gorgeous. She only looks all muscular when she does her flexing. If you saw her in public you would just think she is a fit woman. 

It's something to think about. I don't want to compete but now that my husband has put the idea of pushing my body's limits in my head I'm kind of intrigued. 

Anyways... this post is really just a huge pat on my back that I really needed. I feel less like a whale and more like I'm beautiful again :-) Woo hoo!

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Getting to know you

Here are a couple questions so you can get to know me. Linked from MannLand5.

the q's.

1. what's your favorite rainy day activity?

-Cleaning the house.

2. what time do you go to bed?

-Lately it's been around 11-12. 

3. how many magazines do you subscribe to?

-None, but I have been considering a few. 

4. did you sell all your belongings because you thought the world was ending yesterday?

-Oh you know it ;-)

5. what's your beauty obssesion?

-Anything that makes me feel skinny. I will go out in public with no make up on as long as what I'm wearing makes me feel thin and beautiful. (not talking rail thin here, just my comfortable weight)

6. if you could only wear one designer/brand for the rest of your life...what would it be?

-I'm not into names. If I like it and it's affordable I'll wear it. Idk it's D&G or prada or w/e. If it's as ugly as one of those naked dogs with the one section of hair on its head, then I'm not going to wear it. And they usually are.

7. what's your summer must have?


8. do you make weekly dinner menus?

-I try my best to. 

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Happy Armed Forces Day!

Honoring all who serve this wonderful country no matter what branch!

I stole this from here. She gives a wonderful explanation so you should go read her post if you're unfamiliar with this holiday.

Thanks to our military members. A huge thanks to my husband of course<3 I miss you papa bear<3

Friday, May 20, 2011


I recently changed my blog url. This means anywhere my link is isn't correct anymore and it will say that blog has been removed but it hasn't. It's just been moved :-)

Here is my new button url

Forever Yours, Semper Fi

Or you can just go to the right >>>>> and grab my button there as well.

If you want to switch it out for the old one that would be awesome :-) I hope this doesn't confuse people too much I just didn't want my url and blog name to be different anymore. I'm extremely particular remember? haha.

Love y'all!

If you need a smile

If you need a smile, chuckle, or laugh so hard you question whether you just peed your pants or not then keep reading.

"Shortly after my twins arrived home from the hospital I had to pay a guy a thousand bucks to go through my house and make sure I couldn't open any of my drawers or use any of my outlets. It's insane. Three years in and I still attempt to fling open my bathroom drawer only to have it get grabbed by a nylon hook. I essentially gave somebody a thousand dollars to fuck with me. It'd be like if you paid a guy to fart in your car every morning before you went to work."

-Adam Corolla, In Fifty Years We'll All Be Chicks

I haven't stopped laughing since I opened this book up. Mr. Sykes was reading this forever ago when we went to the store but we didn't buy it. I got to thinking about it today and bought the kindle version for my phone. Best $10 I've ever spent. 

Not for the kind of person who blushes at a swear word. You'll look like a 4 year old paired with her mother's blush the entire way through.

Lot's of swearing, name calling, and cold hard truth. I'm not even through the first chapter yet and I'm pretty sure I've peed 4 times, definitely laughed so hard I snorted twice, and made my mom stop what she was doing and read aloud 5 paragraphs so I could share it with someone. 

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Boohoo & Oorah

Linking up with This lovely lady for this post.

Boohoo: My husband is off to Basitan for a couple days so I probably wont hear from him which makes me very very sad. 

Oorah: I just got an email from him and he isn't leaving yet. Lucky me and my lack of memory haha. 

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Post baby body

I have a huge issue with people telling me that I look good for just having a baby.

Umm really? Why would anyone say that? Oh yea, because I just gained weight and am apparently allowed some extra time to lose it all again. Hell no.

I don't want to look pretty damn good for just having a baby. That wasn't hard. I want to look amazing because I worked by butt off and have less body fat than Heidi Klum. Not physically possible but if you don't aim for impossible then you settle for something anyone can accomplish.

I get that most people gain gigantic amounts of weight while pregnant. I'm not going to throw my input out there on that one I'm just going to say that I only gained 30 lbs, 95% of which was belly. It's not hard to lose your baby weight when it's all in your belly. 

Sure I wasn't tone or anything but I dropped 30 lbs in like 2 weeks. I work out (almost) every day and have worked really hard to feel sexy and beautiful again. So when someone tells me that I look good for just having a baby I'm going to get defensive. How about I look damn good just because I happen to look damn good? 

Thank you!

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Warning: x rated.

Dad, I'm warning you now that you probably don't want to know what I'm about to discuss. You had a fair warning ;-)

Let me just say that it is really hard to be sexy with an infant sleeping 5 feet away. My husband really enjoys the occasional picture of me. By occasional I mean a picture a second wouldn't be enough, and by picture... let's just say clothes are minimal.

I haven't sent him any since he's been gone, over 2 months now, and he didn't get much for the entire pregnancy and he left when I was still a disgusting whale. So I am really excited to not only feel sexy again but show him how great I look.

Unfortunately it's not as easy as it once was. I first had to wait until I could get Abigail to sleep. Then I realized I needed the lights on so I had to cross my fingers that I wouldn't wake her up. Well that failed. I got maybe 2 pics and she started crying. Normally I would take this as a sign that God doesn't approve but it's says in the bible that women are supposed to make our husband's happy and that's what I was trying to do!

So I have now put her back to sleep but at this point a sleeping baby trumps my husband getting any more sexy pics. Sorry baby, maybe next time.

It has really sunk in how old I feel. Sure I still feel beautiful and sexy but I don't even get to use my womanly powers! I want my husband to come home even if it's just for a night so I can feel him undressing me with his eyes. (Don't act like you don't love when your man does that). Oh, and for a babysitter for that night. I love my daughter but mama bear needs her papa bear without interruptions.

I guess this is the point in the deployment where lack of sex starts to get to you. Lucky me.

Sexually deprived for your freedom! But it's not like I'd be getting any anyways. Infants are one hell of a mood killer.

I would like you all to know this is about as personal as I'll probably ever get when it comes to things that happen in our bedroom. Normally I have a very closed door policy but deployments mess with your mind and I am a blogger so the mix has been made and the drinks a double shot of tequila.

Sunday, May 15, 2011


I have a horrible memory. If I didn't know better I would think I was born maybe a couple years ago. I don't remember being a kid except for some events or details here and there. Nothing impressive. 

Sometimes I wonder if I'm just normal and people exaggerate when they say things like they knew exactly what someone was wearing when they first met or they can still hear someones voice. Things like that. 

I know one thing I have never been able to do is visualize people. I could never describe to you what someone looks like. When I try and picture anyone's face it's just a blur. It's so strange. 

All I can think about is when I was like 17, maybe a little younger, I took a pretty nasty fall snowboarding. I hit the back of my head really hard. Maybe it caused some sort of concussion or something. I had a scan though and nothing showed up. 

I really wish I knew if I just really suck at remembering things or if I did something to get this way because it's really horrible. I hate that Mr. Sykes can remember so many things about our relationship and I have to try so hard at it. I wonder if it's like learning a language? If you don't use it, or think about it, then it goes away? 

That hardly makes sense though. I think my memory also plays a huge role in my personality. Since I don't remember things I forgive extremely easily. I remember things when I'm hurt badly but I don't remember specific details that well. 

Maybe I just suppress things without realizing it. 

I'm just really jealous of people who can be like "Remember in kindergarten when we did this, this and this?" My long term memory is shot. 

Friday, May 13, 2011

What hurts the most...

Going through this deployment there have been certain things that put me in a horrible mood. Usually it's something like every single person I run into asking me how I am and how my husband is. Or someone just simply asking me how I am. I hate that. I'm always fine until someone asks me if I'm ok. Leave me alone people. What do you honestly expect me to say? Do you think I'll say "I'm just peachy! My husband is deployed and I'm not the least bit sad."? Obviously I'm not ok. I'm never going to be ok as long as my husband is in a war zone. Just quit with the questioning.

Oh, and no I will not go into detail as to what my husband does and is doing. I've gone over my limit for patience now. I used to explain his job and now if someone asks I just say he loads helicopters. That's all they really care to know anyway I'm sure and I'm sooo tired of explaining it.

Other than annoyances like those though there is one thing that really made me sad. It's going to sound incredibly selfish but hearing about another wive's husband coming home made me miss mine even more.

Don't get me wrong though. I am always EXTREMELY happy for other wive's when they get their husband home. It's not that I'm angry. It's just that it reminds me how far I still have to go. Once it gets closer I'm sure it will be more exciting for me but 10 months still seems so far away.

When I saw her good news I was initially super excited and happy for her. Then once I realize that I still have 10 months before that incredible moment I just wanted to ball my eyes out. I miss him so much.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011


I can finally see all of the people I follow again. Took long enough! I have some serious catching up to do.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Blogger is ticking me off

For almost 2 days now my blogger home page is saying that I'm not following any blogs. Um I definitely follow lots of blogs and I'm definitely getting withdrawal.

Has this happened to anyone else? Is there a way to fix it? Help :-(

Monday, May 9, 2011

It's been a while

I haven't posted in a couple days. Actually maybe just yesterday. It's felt like forever though.

Education update: I'm finishing my bachelors as planned. Once Mr. Sykes gets out in March 2013 we are moving to the Charlotte area and there is a college there that offers DMS. I will have to see how demanding the program is but I'm expecting that I will have to put it on hold until the hubs is done with his education. I can't let him put his primary degree on hold for my secondary.

I will be the bread winner for 4 years or so once we move and then hopefully we will be able to switch and I can go back to get my DMS degree while he works.

I have looked at this from every possible angle I could find and this is definitely the best decision for us and what our family needs.

Thanks to everyone for their info and help. I really appreciate it :-)

Saturday, May 7, 2011

This and that

First of all I am exhausted. I have been fighting a nap all day. When baby girl fell asleep at 5 I figured I'd nap with her too. Well I just woke up and it's now 10pm. She's still sleeping but I'm considering waking her up so that she will actually sleep until a normal morning hour tomorrow.

Speaking of tomorrow, it's my very first Mother's Day. I'm excited. It's just a mild excitement. A couple weeks ago I was really excited for it until I started talking to Mr. Sykes about it. I asked him if he was excited for father's day since it was his first one and he said no. He doesn't get to see her so it's just another day for him. Which is true and made me feel awful.

Anyways, I'm happy that I get to celebrate this wonderful new holiday but I'm sad because it's another holiday I have to get through without my husband this year. It wont be as hard as christmas or anything, but it's just that little ting you feel when you realize that everything would be perfect if he were here.

Onto more positive thinking... I think I have figured out my education path for now. I am going to continue as planned with finishing my bachelors degree. I need to have that degree just to feel accomplished and because I'm going to be the breadwinner for a couple years.

Once Mr. Sykes is out and we move to Charlotte, as of right now that's where we are headed, he will be starting classes. They have a program there for diagnostic medical sonography but I wont be able to take it until he is done with college so that he can work and I can return to studying.

It's going to really suck to have to wait that long but his primary education comes before my secondary. That is something he needs to get done and something I really want for him so it's priority.

I would love to have gotten my bachelors while simultaneously getting my associates in DMS but unfortunately I can't do any of the programs up here (booked solid until 2012), or online (extremely competitive and past primary acceptance dates as well as having to take some other prerequisites). The only option I would have would be to move back to NC a lot sooner than expected and start the program either in Wilmington or Charlotte. I would be completely ok with that except that we agreed on this temporary move to NY for Abigail to be around family, for the help and my sanity, as well as to get a good jump on our savings and pay off our debt. Saving so much in rent and utilities really makes it hard to say I want to move back so soon.

The other downer is that I will be getting more student loans added on with this bachelors. Not much but still some. MYCAA would pay for my associates in DMS but since I'm now going to start it after he is out I don't have that option.

Isn't it strange how MYCAA only pays for your education as long as it's a certificate, licensure, or associates degree? Nothing higher than an associates. This change happened in October which really stinks because I just missed it. I'm happy that it helps with people who don't even have their associates yet but I'm disappointed that they don't reach out and try to help us who are trying to continue our education. Especially since they know that our military men don't make a fortune and a lot of military spouses need to work as well.

Oh well. We will figure it all out. As for right now, looks like my classes start up the 25th. I should be done by February. Fingers crossed for this to go smoothly so I can accomplish this before my Mr. get's home.

Friday, May 6, 2011

Happy Military Spouse Appreciation Day!

I just wanted to wish all of my fellow Military Wives a happy Military Spouse Appreciation Day! :-)

I appreciate you, your husband's appreciate you (hopefully they tell you enough), and your country appreciates you. Keep up the hard work ladies!!

I should include the husbands in this too. So change that to keep up the good work ladies and gents!

Thursday, May 5, 2011

I'm going to lose my mind.

When talking with my husband last night I had a realization that hit me like a ton of bricks in the face.
When Mr. Sykes EAS's from the Marines in March of 2013 he is going to be going back to school. That means that I am going to be solely responsible for our family's income. If you can put that kind of responsibility on yourself without having to prevent yourself from throwing up then kudos to you. When I realized this I practically sh*t my pants.

Sure, I'll have my bachelor's degree complete by the time Mr. Sykes even comes home from this deployment. That in no way means I am ready or even capable of tackling a career. I have never been able to keep a job. I have trouble staying with something that I don't really enjoy or I'm not very good at. Alright I'll just say it. My work ethic SUCKS.

I know that most people get jobs so they can support themselves or their families no matter what it is, as long as it pays. I can't do that. I want to be able to but I don't think I could ever do that.

You might be wondering why I would get a bachelor's degree I didn't want. Well it's simple. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life when I started college and business sounded like the best route for me. I have my associates in liberal arts so I dipped my feet in lots of different types of courses. Business always stood out to me. Well, now that I realized all of the other awesome career possibilities that are out there a business degree seems boring. It's not useless though. It's a great degree to have. I just don't see myself being a manager of any sorts.

What I really want to do is become a Diagnostic Medical Sonographer. A fancy way of saying an ultrasound technician. I want to work with pregnant ladies and share in the wonderful experience of being pregnant. Apparently there are several ways of going about accomplishing this.

I can find a college that offers an associates or bachelors in diagnostic medical sonography. There are also colleges that offer a certificate program but as far as I've read you can only apply for that if you have another degree in a medical related field. Some colleges even offer these degrees or programs online but there are limitations with these as well, from what I understand anyways.

I really wanted to be able to do a certificate so that I would be able to complete it before Mr. Sykes was out of the Marines. I don't think it would be possible to do an associates degree in that time.

I had Abigail's hip ultrasound today, just routine for babies born breech, so I asked the ultrasound tech what I had to do to become one. She told me that I could either get an associates,bachelors degree or certificate in it or have a bachelors degree in anything else and just do the clinical hours.

I would love the last option of just doing the clinical hours but I think I must have understood her wrong. It just doesn't seem like it could be that simple.

If anyone has ANY information that would help me out PLEASEEE send it my way. If I have to just get my associates I'll do that once he is out of the military but I really want to be trained in something specific that I'll actually enjoy so that I won't be so damn nervous about being financially responsible for our family.

I honestly don't know how anyone does it. I guess it might be rewarding once I get over this extreme fear and anxiety. In order for that to happen I really need to become an ultrasound technician.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Birth control

Today I had my "6 week" check up from my C-Section. It's actually been over 8 weeks but who's counting. Everything is golden. I got on birth control again. I was bummed because I really wanted Mirena so I didn't have to worry about taking a pill, getting a patch, doing the ring thing, or getting a shot but since my reproductive system is all duplicated and such I wouldn't be able to use it.

So instead I am on Seasonique. Sure, I have to remember to take a pill every day but I'm ok with that. The upside is I will only get my period 4 times a year and each period should only be 3 days long and a light flow. I'm SUPER excited about this because I hate my period. I hate it more than the normal woman does.

You see because of my lovely reproductive system and the way it is I can't use tampons. Yea. Now I don't mind that so much because the idea of tampons grosses me the hell out anyways and I actually don't mind wearing pads. The big downside though is that when I have my period I can't go swimming since I obviously can't wear a pad in the water. Having my period only 4 times a year for only 3 days I'm sure I'll be able to handle not going to the beach for 3 days.

I don't think I have ever been so happy to be on birth control. I love my daughter but in no way, shape or form do I want another child just yet.

Right now I have the best form, abstinence. Or deprivation really. But when Mr. Sykes comes home on R&R all of that is out the door and I'm making sure we have a baby sitter for at least one full night. If you catch my drift.

This might be the most open about my sex life and period I will ever be. My dad reads this and I hope I didn't just completely gross him out. Sorry daddy <3 , but in order to give you that beautiful granddaughter, well...you had to have known.

Oh speaking of that beautiful little girl of mine... I fully mean to brag that she slept for 11 hours last night; 10 the night before that. Although she usually doesn't pull those kinds of numbers she always pulls at least an 8. Screw what those parenting books say, there is such a thing as a good baby and boy is mine GREAT!
The date is completely wrong if you caught that. 

Ok, gross and bragging post over.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

One last mention.

‎"I mourn the loss of thousands of precious lives, but I will not rejoice in the death of one, not even an enemy. Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that." --Martin Luther King, Jr

My cousin sent me this and I'm glad she did so I can share it with you. 

I’ve never wished a man dead, 
but I have read some obituaries with great pleasure.
- Mark Twain

I took this from Skinnie Piggie's blog. This is exactly how I feel. I would never wish anyone dead, no matter how evil they are. But I can admittedly be happy over such a victory, if only for the sake of this dreadfully long war. 

Monday, May 2, 2011

Im right you're wrong.

Osamas death has become a debate of the ages. People are happy he's dead, people are mad that people are happy, and some people aren't even sure he's really dead. Here is what I think of it all.

Having a party because someone has died is disgusting. Being thankful that such an evil person is gone is expected. If we rejoice over his death we are no better than they are for doing the same when our military fall.

As far as not believing osama is actually dead and this is all a political scheme... I'm going to give obama the benefit of the doubt on this. I don't think anyone would be so disgusting but if it comes out that he did lie then only god can help him.

Above all else we need to think of our military first. This very well could put them in a lot more danger.
Whether you're happy, thankful, or indifferent about osama's "death" please keep your thoughts and prayers with our loved ones fighting for our right to have any thoughts or feelings we wish.

EDIT: I would just like to add that Obama did not kill Osama. A soldier did. A soldier that Obama considered not paying just a few weeks ago. Just saying.

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Sunday, May 1, 2011

On a more serious note

It has just been made public that Osama Bin Laden is dead. Although I am very thankful that justice has been received I am worried about our troops safety.

Please everyone keep our military in your thoughts and prayers. This very well could make things more dangerous for them.

Whiney blahdy blah blah

Abigail has been sleeping through the night for quite a while now. So last night when she decided to wake up at 3am and play until almost 6 I wanted to bash my head against a wall.

Well I didn't do that, but I did cry a little and thoughts of chucking her out the window did occur. (I would never do that just so all you overzealous crazies can calm down).

I felt awful because Mr. Sykes was online and I got grumpy with him because I was exhausted and had a crying baby to tend to. He's an extremely understanding man which I am very thankful for<3

Last night I realized that I never get a break from being a mom. Well obviously I'll never get a break from that but I mean I never leave her side. I love being around her but sometimes I just need a break.

School starts at the end of the month so that should give me some time to myself, even though I'm doing it online. Hopefully someone will watch her while I get my work done so I don't have to juggle.

I've also been considering getting a job. I don't know how busy I will be with my classes so I'll have to wait and see how that goes first. I think it would be nice to make my own money again and at the same time get out of the house and have a little break from the little one.

On another note, I finally went clothes shopping and now have things that actually fit!! Yay! :-)  Oh, and Abigail will be 2 months old tomorrow. Time is flying by! And I can't say I'm sad about it. The faster the time goes the sooner my Mr will be in my arms again<3