Saturday, May 8, 2010

Beginning of a break down.

Being a military wife means dealing with break downs. I should be a pro at dealing with these by now but I'm not. It seems like they just get worse. I try to be strong all the time. I hate showing people that I am weak but I can't hold this in. I am sad and angry. I'm upset and emotional. I feel like my minds racing and my hearts pounding. I need him home. I need his arms around me. I need him to tell me everything will be ok.

I remember how it felt to be away from him while I was at college. Before we were married it seems as if this was easier. I don't know how marriage has changed anything. I guess maybe it is because everything I do affects us. These huge decisions I have to make affect US. Not me, but US.

I know it's because he's not here and I miss him but I feel like I'm going to break. I am just waiting for it. I feel like the tears are going to just pour out of me at any moment. Like I'm going to burst. I need him to hold me together but he's not here.

I Love You Mr. Sykes.
Please come home soon.

Semper Fi<3


  1. Well, I am a fan of breakdowns. The tend to come around at least once a week.
    I;m sorry hun, I hope you have a better night.

  2. It gets easier!!!!!!!! I promise!!!!!!!!

  3. I know how you are feeling! It seems like somedays, just having his arms there makes it all better. I'm waaaaay more prone to breakdowns whenever my mr. is gone. But breakdowns are okay sometimes. Sometimes getting the tears out just makes everything a little more bearable. You are strong and beautiful! Don't ever forget that! You'll get through this!

  4. Sometimes after I cry, I feel better. Sounds silly... but true for me.

  5. Oh hunnie -

    I have these moments all the time. Where it just feels like you are drowning in the sadness. Stay strong, like a wave it will pass. He will be home before you know it.

    Big hugs.

  6. I love my blog ladies<3 You girls are the best!<3


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